I'll say it once as I've said it before I've been away from this blog site for a while now and wow it actually feels good to get back on here. I find myself falling off and then I find my way right back here picking up from where I left off. When I come back and read posts that I have on here it's a reflection and me reminding myself to keep working and keep working on making my dreams a reality.
So my last post was "I'm in the process of positive change I took a different path away from
the baking business and I took my baking gloves off to venture out and
really put my words into action. It took some time to get things in
order long hours and days researching but I finally took the plung and
said ... "enough is enough are we gonna do this shit or what?"
So here I am proud and happy to say that I'm really putting all my words
into action I've always had my love for art and fashion in all forms.
No matter how hard I tried or even emerced myself into other projects
and hobbies I would always come back to Art. I took matters into my own
hands and became self taught in graphic designing and yes it was rough
at first but as time went on things have just become natural like I'm truly meant to do this.
For years now I've had a deep passion to design and run my own apparel
line I literally have old pages from years back of designs and layouts
that I've only imagined could be real. Sadly I myself put doubt in my mind that
it could never happen and so those ideas were kept hidden and locked up
in my sketch books. Every now and then my sketch books would reappear
randomly as I would be going through stuff and I would skim through them
admiring them but then would tuck them back away telling myself "nah you can't do this".
Well... God tested me once again it was almost like he was calling me out to challenge me and see how badly I wanted this dream that I keep playing with. It got me thinking and I just decided why have I let so many years go by without doing anything with my ideas and visions. No matter how hard I try this dream is not leaving me so I have to do something about it.
I lost my job and well finding another job was not going so well I was being turned away left and right and I couldn't figure out why. I have years of experience in customer service, dispatching, case management etc. so why isn't anyone hiring me. I became discouraged and just starting putting myself out there and be open to whatever job I could get just as long as I could make some kind of income.
Then it hit me WTF am I doing I'm so quick and ready to run back to the corporate world when the whole time that I was working I was spending hours and late nights after work putting in research to really figure out how I can progress myself into a graphic design career. So there was the sign your being turned away because you have a bigger purpose to fulfill your dreams.Then once I figured it out the next step was putting everything into play I had to scale down all my ideas and really put the vision together.
Fast forward just a bit and I can proudly say I made the decision to enroll in school and got my Associates degree in Graphic Design. The experience as a whole challenged me and pushed me to levels that proved to myself how strong I really am. I was going to school in the morning and working 2 jobs one day job 2 days a week and a night job 4 days a week just to make ends meet while going to school.
Talk about a struggle but it tested me harder then I've ever been tested before and I can honestly say that through the struggle it help me find myself and pushed me to have confidence in myself. God has blessed me with talents and I have been hiding them for too long.
I have a ton more to share about what I'm doing now but at the same time I want to use this blog site as I've always intended to use it for and collaborate with other artists and creators. I've had the opportunity to have a Shout Out feature with an online magazine to tell a little about myself as an artist and creator.
From that experience I want to do the same for some of my favorite artists and creators that I admire and feature them here on my site.
Everything is a work in progress but I'm going to be on here more often with new content and really put in the work to make this blog site what I've envisioned for so long.
See you soon! - Jenny Jenn
